So as a recently single gay man, I have decided to approach things a little differently than I have in the past 20 years of relationships...not having a relationship. As I say this and remember the book I'm currently reading about being a single gay man, I realize that is not possible because even when you have casual relationships, they are still relationships. And what happens when these relationships break up? The unbreakup.
"Of course I'm happy for you," is all I can muster when a 'friend with benefits' talks about the new guy in his life. They've spent more time together than we have and even though my 'friend' and I have a lot in common, I'm not going to kid myself. There's nothing more than friendship in the cards for us. So why do I feel like I've been dumped? I don't even want a relationship at this point, yet for some reason not having that option feels like a loss.
Then I chuckle to myself and truly do feel happiness for him because he deserves to be happy after all that he's been through. I also deserve to be happy and right now that means not developing serious, committed relationships. It could also mean developing a thicker skin.
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