Christmas is coming and I have always had a partner at this time of year. Someone to share decorating the tree, someone to endure the shopping malls and someone to hold hands with while walking by the elaborately decorated store window displays. That's what really spawned this post, seeing the Holt's window displays all decorated for the holidays and it made me realize that I won't have someone special to share these things with this year. Even though this time of year is geared toward families, it stands to reason that it's also special for the two people who make it a family.
Of course there are friends of mine who don't even have family nearby to be with and if they cannot travel to them then they have basically no one to spend Christmas time with. In that respect I am lucky to have most of my family only a short drive away and yes, my own child living with me. I won't be alone but I will still feel lonely.
I heard that this time of year has the highest suicide rates and I can see why.
Even when it was just me and my partner, we would spend time doing things together. We'd buy a giant box of hors d'oeuvres from M&M meat shop and eat the whole box while watching movies like White Christmas and Christmas Vacation or we'd play video games for hours all the while never having changed out of our pajamas. We'd drive all over the city on Boxing Day looking for deals and finishing our Christmas wishlist which our families hadn't. We'd hold hands while ice-skating at city hall, mainly because otherwise I would fall down.
All I can do is make new memories with my daughter, family and friends. And ask Santa for the perfect man. I had him once, but we outgrew each other, another post.
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