First date, that never was

My very first date actually never happened. I remember it very clearly because it was a really silly situation but in retrospect, I probably dodged another bullet. It was grade nine and I made friends with a group of girls who all had crushes on me at one point or another throughout high school and you'll meet each one later. Today you get to meet Cindy, the studious, the analytical, the brain.

We were sort of set up by our friend Lisa, the mouth. It was decided that the three of us would all go to a movie, The Golden Child to be specific. We were to meet at the mall in front of the theater to buy tickets and I'm sure Lisa planned to ditch Cindy and I at some point in order for things to take their natural course. As usual I was early and stood around looking like a dork. By the time the movie time came and went I never saw the girls so, feeling dejected, I went home. It didn't even occur to me to go into the movie anyway, but how would I have missed them standing right beside the theater entrance?

Turns out I did miss them and they went ahead and saw the movie, thinking I had ditched them. Snafu. This is probably the point of OCD birth. No amount of apologies made up for this so we took it as a sign to just be friends. And we did for the rest of high school, becoming confidants, sagely offering advice on each others love lives, sharing difficulties and even endeavoring to write a song together. That is until a sad and challenging life occurence would befall her family and we parted ways with bad feelings on both sides which would be a common secondary theme to my life.

To this day I have tried finding her to make amends but even a heartfelt message on facebook has gone unanswered. I have to wonder if she has decided to leave her past in the past and that includes me. I can understand wanting to do that and the bravery it takes to start a whole new life. Seems to me that is an intrinsic part of life, starting over, having first dates over and over again. This time, however, I plan to go into the theater and see what awaits me.